manifestoofthephoenix's Blog

Below is a log of someone pushing me around and calling me an idiot and telling me i'm a failure. please note i just registered for the summer session at wake tech. time to start proving this shitpile wrong. Everytime someone pushes me around like this it only makes me more determined, so come on down and feed my masochistic side, tell me i quit everything else in life so i'll quit this too.





sixsecondscore: so are you planning on coming down soon?


blah: no


sixsecondscore: not at all


blah: mom agreed not to charge me rent so i could save for a car


blah: so i decided to save for a more expensive one





sixsecondscore: i was just curious


sixsecondscore: because really you were suppose to be down here by now


blah: yes.


blah: shit goes to hell


blah: i would be if id idn't need a CAR for groceries


blah: i found a studio for like 450 and 150 deposit


blah: i would take it


sixsecondscore: plus utilities


blah: but i wouldn't have transport to the grocery mart


sixsecondscore: plus food


sixsecondscore: do you realize how broke you're going to be


blah: eh


sixsecondscore: i gotta wait 2-3 days


sixsecondscore: and do that shit


blah: i wanted room mates but i can't trust ANYONE and rach went and got her place n FEBUARY


blah: instead of waiting


blah: i could of managed


sixsecondscore: no you cant


sixsecondscore: ypu


blah: but she got a two bedroom and one is connors


sixsecondscore: you're gonna be asking for money from your family every other week


sixsecondscore: still 450  plus 100 for electic plus 30 for water


sixsecondscore: plus 100 a week for food


blah: it doesn't cost me 100 a week to eat


blah: it cost me like 50


sixsecondscore: oh and none of that comes to internet and stuff


blah: which i steal


sixsecondscore: lol


sixsecondscore: yeah


sixsecondscore: you're plan is fucked


blah: 580 + 200 = 780


blah: 1070  is what i get


sixsecondscore: ok


sixsecondscore: so


blah: you still haven't come up with so many expenses i'd go broke


sixsecondscore: 1070-780


sixsecondscore: is?


sixsecondscore: 290


sixsecondscore: so cable


sixsecondscore: -50


sixsecondscore: internet


sixsecondscore: -50


blah: why the hell would i get cable?


sixsecondscore: cell phone


blah: paid for by my family


sixsecondscore: -50


sixsecondscore: ok


sixsecondscore: or not


sixsecondscore: 200 for food


blah: that was including food


blah: the 780


sixsecondscore: ok fair enough


sixsecondscore: so


sixsecondscore: 290 for the month to spend


sixsecondscore: that's what


sixsecondscore: 70 a week?


sixsecondscore: yeah


sixsecondscore: you obviously have never lived on your own


sixsecondscore: im nervous about moving out and after my rent and everything i still have 300 a week


blah: you care to be roomies?


sixsecondscore: cant im renting a room


sixsecondscore: 400 plud utilities included


blah: you realize when you go to roommates.com and find a room for 300 that's utilties included right?


blah: I could just find room mates online


blah: and live with strangers


sixsecondscore: lol


sixsecondscore: yeah of course


sixsecondscore: and you're coming down in feb


blah: no


sixsecondscore: right?


blah: i'm not


sixsecondscore: remember when i laugh at you


sixsecondscore: roomates.com


sixsecondscore: is an example of why i would laugh at ypu


blah: you really are an asshole, you know that right?


blah: as if i'd even tell you


blah: better yet I just don't tell you if i come or if i go


blah: because i'd rather not be subjected to your bullshit


blah: who knows


blah: maybe i'll stay here and go back to school


blah: with my grand parents willing to pay


blah: hell, that was kind of what i have everyone planning for anyways


blah: why the fuck would i want to live in florida? consider who your governor is


blah: considering orlando replaced the best thing that ever happened to them with alan grayson


blah: the whole populace is fucked


blah: i can write off the majority as a bunch of assholes as easily as pie


sixsecondscore: no sure


sixsecondscore: doesnt mean you didnt fail in your attempt to come down


blah: i haven't attempted shit yet


blah: so bugger off


sixsecondscore: oh ok


sixsecondscore: sorry


sixsecondscore: hey


sixsecondscore: didnt mean to point to obvious out


sixsecondscore: and that i called it


sixsecondscore: 3 months ago


sixsecondscore: thats all


sixsecondscore: a jon you were right every once and a while you know would really make me feel better


sixsecondscore: considering


sixsecondscore: im right 90 percent of the time


blah: You're going to make that degree all that much sweeter


blah: you're a naysayer and i think the idea of me suceeding fucking terrifies you


blah: because you can't stand to be outdone and that's EXACTLY what the motivation will be to do do good in school and not fucking quit


blah: sucess is the best revenge, after all.


sixsecondscore: ...


sixsecondscore: ok


sixsecondscore: well


sixsecondscore: where to start on those dumb comment


sixsecondscore: s


sixsecondscore: 1. where i've failed? besides the fact the ive only lived at home for 6 months the past 5 years


sixsecondscore: you know


sixsecondscore: 2. like i really care what you say


sixsecondscore: 3. no really i could give a fuck less wether you win or loss


sixsecondscore: my ego is not affected


sixsecondscore: 4,


sixsecondscore: well


sixsecondscore: i was actually right


sixsecondscore: so i mean that counts for something


sixsecondscore: and finaly


blah: you don't love being right


sixsecondscore: i do


sixsecondscore: wtf


sixsecondscore: how do people do tha


sixsecondscore: t


sixsecondscore: like they really know


blah: whst you love is bumming me out and crushing my hopes


blah: otherwise you wouldn't do it


sixsecondscore: no


sixsecondscore: i wish


sixsecondscore: i do


sixsecondscore: so much


sixsecondscore: that would would win


sixsecondscore: but you have such horrible idea's


sixsecondscore: its like watching a kid figure out he can listen to the radio in the bathtub


sixsecondscore: thats how bad you are


sixsecondscore: constantly


sixsecondscore: but


sixsecondscore: you're a fighter


sixsecondscore: you're never wrong


sixsecondscore: so why do i bother


sixsecondscore: even when im right


blah: I don't care about being right! i don't give a flying fuck!


sixsecondscore: im wrong in your book


sixsecondscore: you're like a whore


blah: I don't care if i can come to florida or noto


blah: i don't CARE if you're right!


blah: do you not get it?


sixsecondscore: but i do


blah: It doesn't matter


sixsecondscore: i dont care if you do or not


sixsecondscore: but the fact


sixsecondscore: that i called it


sixsecondscore: months ago


sixsecondscore: has credence


sixsecondscore: just saying


sixsecondscore: hey im not saying its impossible


sixsecondscore: just saying


sixsecondscore: with the plan you had


sixsecondscore: it wouldnt happen


blah: you'd also shit a brick when i told you i was planning to major in psychology and get a phd in it


blah: because i'm sure you'd think i'm a quitter


blah: and can't comitt to anything


sixsecondscore: you'd


sixsecondscore: is past tense


sixsecondscore: and quitter is light for what i think of you


blah: you would. not you did


blah: ...ugh


sixsecondscore: ...


sixsecondscore: again


sixsecondscore: not i would


sixsecondscore: or i did


sixsecondscore: but i do


sixsecondscore: so how is there a tense


sixsecondscore: ?


blah: would doesn't have to be past tense!


blah: would can VERY easily be present


sixsecondscore: it is when using a verb


sixsecondscore: sarcasm


sixsecondscore: just to let you know


sixsecondscore: isnt an excuse for shit english


sixsecondscore: because you would think


sixsecondscore: mean


sixsecondscore: s


blah: ....ugh


sixsecondscore: either probabaly


sixsecondscore: or did


blah: you WILL


sixsecondscore: either of which


sixsecondscore: is wrong


sixsecondscore: i will


sixsecondscore: is still wrong


sixsecondscore: i do


blah: I do shit a brick is bad fucking grammar


sixsecondscore: you shouldve just said


sixsecondscore: you do


sixsecondscore: no


sixsecondscore: i was proving a point


sixsecondscore: i think you suck


blah: you do shit a brick isn't proper


sixsecondscore: you could never do college


sixsecondscore: let alone psychology


blah: bullshit


sixsecondscore: oh ok


sixsecondscore: yeah im just pretending


blah: you've got your evidence based on what?


sixsecondscore: based on


sixsecondscore: you're life


blah: what happened at publix and what you consider bad grammar that can't be replaced?


blah: retrained


sixsecondscore: you got those microsoft certificates?


blah: Why would i? they were worthless


blah: i did research


sixsecondscore: oh ok


sixsecondscore: yeah


sixsecondscore: so you


sixsecondscore: "quit that"


blah: before i spent the money


sixsecondscore: what about high school


sixsecondscore: well fuck that shit too


sixsecondscore: what about anything


sixsecondscore: you eve


sixsecondscore: r


sixsecondscore: didnt want to do


blah: you know what i want more than anything right?


blah: to prove you wrong for the sake of it.


sixsecondscore: really?


sixsecondscore: here's the catch 22


sixsecondscore: that involves work


blah: oh no!


sixsecondscore: and you dont have a worth ethic


sixsecondscore: at all


sixsecondscore: really


sixsecondscore: here let's stop this


sixsecondscore: paul


sixsecondscore: remember this moment


sixsecondscore: you are wrong


sixsecondscore: i think you are an idiot


sixsecondscore: "sixsecondscore (sixsecondscore)" signed off at Tue Feb 08 21:06:38 2011.


blah: NOBODY tells me i'm stupid and happens to be right. You know why I bombed out of high school, i've told you a thousand fucking times. Too much time was spent compensating for the students who didn't want to learn and didn't bother paying attention and who's heads simply "exploded with pain" everytime they had to do god forbid fucking algerbra


blah: I couldn't take


blah: all the PAPER WORK


sixsecondscore: i od


sixsecondscore: do


sixsecondscore: first off


sixsecondscore: so


blah: they were throwing at me because they needed to be SURE


sixsecondscore: right there you fail


sixsecondscore: dude


blah: and you know what? If i'm paying 300 dollars a course


sixsecondscore: whatever


blah: and they're throwing bullshit at me


blah: i'm going to swallow bullshit


sixsecondscore: was i right?


sixsecondscore: justify all you want


blah: especially because you said i couldn't fucking swallow bullshit


sixsecondscore: but fuck you


sixsecondscore: you never take any advice I havee


blah: because nothing would be sweeter than the taste of bullshit after you told me i couldn't


sixsecondscore: because you think you know everything


blah: I'm not stupid


sixsecondscore: you have a god complex


sixsecondscore: so hey


sixsecondscore: do what you want


blah: i had a bad work ethic


blah: you're right in that criticism


blah: but it's 20fucking 11 and unlike you people change


sixsecondscore: yeah?


sixsecondscore: show me


sixsecondscore: words are cheap


blah: i wish i had done better in high school


sixsecondscore: you are the exact same as 2002


sixsecondscore: so


sixsecondscore: what can you do


blah: but being STUPID is incurable, having a bad work ethic and being LAZY can be corrected


blah: i'm not stupid!


sixsecondscore: yeah you are


sixsecondscore: but thats besides the point


sixsecondscore: you're not unteachable is what you mean


sixsecondscore: but stupid


sixsecondscore: yea


sixsecondscore: h


blah: 144.


blah: is hardly a low iq


sixsecondscore: 12 times 12


sixsecondscore: oh no


sixsecondscore: iq tests


sixsecondscore: again


sixsecondscore: actions


sixsecondscore: speak louder than words


sixsecondscore: living like a dult makes you a dult


sixsecondscore: hence


sixsecondscore: you're a dult


sixsecondscore: "sixsecondscore (sixsecondscore)" signed off at Tue Feb 08 21:18:53 2011.


Session Close (sixsecondscore): Tue Feb 08 21:18:57 2011 -0500